Missing You

Today I had the opportunity to spend some fabulous alone time with my little sister Mimi. She's a precious girl who reminds me why I love this world so much. 

Well due to lack of cable, we're pounding out all the movies we've ever owned, and I chose to turn on Bridge to Terabithia. It's a wonderful movie and I've always loved it. If you haven't seen it, you should watch it soon, but I'll warn you, it's a tear jerker. 

Now I don't want to spoil anything, so I'll be vague and cut to the chase. While watching the ending, I thought of a precious girl who came into my life when I was thirteen. We were in a play together, and I was Annie, and she was one of the two girls who played Sandy, the dog. We became friends quickly, and we got to know each other. Two years passed and we talked every once in a while. 

On December 11th, 2010, I found out that I had lost my dear friend Brooke to suicide. It didn't hit me right away. I was shocked, and depressed, but I hadn't cried until a few nights later when I finally broke down. I didn't attend her funeral, which I regret, because it hurt too much. 

It's now coming up on the sixth month mark of Brooke's death, and I miss her so much. I'm not the only one either. On Brooke's Facebook page, there are daily posts from so many people who want to see her again. There was a Facebook page created in her memory which now has 1,105 fans. 

So many people miss Brooke tremendously. I don't know if anyone knew anything about her state the days leading up to it, but I can't help but wonder if she could have been helped. 

I'd like to take this time to express my love for all of you. Even if I have no idea who you are-- I love you. You mean so much to me, and it's my greatest goal to help you realize how special and irreplaceable you are. If you feel yourself so lost and alone, know that there is always help. I have learned that people love you, and there is always someone to listen. I know it may not seem like it, but I mean that, and I promise that.

Life is, unfortunately, painful, and my heart aches to know that so many people are where I have been, where Brooke was, and where so many people are. Reach out to those who you see hurting-- tell them you love them, give them a smile, let them talk to you, stand up for them. If you are hurting, tell someone, and begin to heal. 

1-800-SUICIDE		1-800-273-TALK
1-800-784-2433		1-800-273-8255

We love you Brooke, and we miss you so much. Be our angel <3

With all my love, 

Madeline